I fucked up. im back to 145. but i was at the beach for senior week enjoying the fuck outta myself so i regret nothing. since i have the whole summer to get into shape before college, i plan to track my progress on here as much as possible. i was honestly fine with myself before i went to the beach. i didnt even care that i looked chubby in a bathing suit but the turning point for me was my best friend sam. shes beautiful. perfect hair, perfect eyes, perfect body, the total package. and i was the girl that always came with her. i was like the annoying dog that followed her everywhere. i was her less attractive friend. her sidekick if you will. it made me feel like shit. all the guys sitting around her telling her she was the hottest thing around and not even mentioning my name even though i was sitting right next to her. my goal is to be hot. not only for boys, because i am boy crazy, but for myself. i want to feel good about myself. therego i give you day 1.
Starting Weight: 145
Highest Weight: 195
Lowest Weight: 127
Ultimate Goal Weight: 125
To also motivate me a little bit ive come up with a list of prizes to award myself whenever i get to a certain weight.
since relapsing, ive been watching what ive been eating, and excercising whenever possible even though im a full time student, and i work 4 days a week. i need to hurry this up now because PROM is coming up soon and so is graduation so i NEED to look good in these pictures.